Post by hedgie on Dec 14, 2010 12:59:44 GMT -6
Being alone was nice enough.
Maybe not perfect, but he didn't mind it all that much. Being alone seemed normal to him. Where most cats thrived on socialization, he had grown so used to being without it that it seemed unnecessary. Trivial, really. The few friends he did have weren't even in his own Clan. He needed a reason to visit them, even if he could go poke about their territories...there'd always have to be a good explanation for being there. Loneliness obviously wouldn't persuade patrols to let him through. Wanting to chat it up with your friends didn't get you across borders. He was stuck here, isolated. His own mentor barely had time for him, and he was probably behind on his training.
Seriously, how much worse did things have to get before they started getting better?
Dark claws raked the ground, pulling Crowpaw away from the camp and into the moorland. He knew what he wanted to do...he wanted to find someone who could help him. Angry, he slipped down into the tunnels of the old badger set, hidden beneath the ground. There were rabbits here...he could smell them, but he wasn't in the mood to hunt. He just wanted to be alone.
But he wanted someone to talk to.
He was just a walking contradiction, had been for a little while. He was still so very young, too young to be under the amount of stress he was in. The dark-furred tom curled up into a ball, far enough from the entrance to not be seen if someone walked paws, but close enough to see if anyone did.
Growling to himself, he rested his head against his chest, dark gold eyes closing to half-slits.
He could think here. It was the best place to start a plan, the best place to be if you didn't want to be found.
Maybe not perfect, but he didn't mind it all that much. Being alone seemed normal to him. Where most cats thrived on socialization, he had grown so used to being without it that it seemed unnecessary. Trivial, really. The few friends he did have weren't even in his own Clan. He needed a reason to visit them, even if he could go poke about their territories...there'd always have to be a good explanation for being there. Loneliness obviously wouldn't persuade patrols to let him through. Wanting to chat it up with your friends didn't get you across borders. He was stuck here, isolated. His own mentor barely had time for him, and he was probably behind on his training.
Seriously, how much worse did things have to get before they started getting better?
Dark claws raked the ground, pulling Crowpaw away from the camp and into the moorland. He knew what he wanted to do...he wanted to find someone who could help him. Angry, he slipped down into the tunnels of the old badger set, hidden beneath the ground. There were rabbits here...he could smell them, but he wasn't in the mood to hunt. He just wanted to be alone.
But he wanted someone to talk to.
He was just a walking contradiction, had been for a little while. He was still so very young, too young to be under the amount of stress he was in. The dark-furred tom curled up into a ball, far enough from the entrance to not be seen if someone walked paws, but close enough to see if anyone did.
Growling to himself, he rested his head against his chest, dark gold eyes closing to half-slits.
He could think here. It was the best place to start a plan, the best place to be if you didn't want to be found.