My Muse/Absence

[Amber]

I thought I would go ahead and post this, cause I doubt I will be able to even think about typing it in the c-box. I don't know why but it is making me feel somewhat better typing it out here...

My nephew just passed away today, and I just found out about an hour ago. I'm still shaken up and I can't stop trembling and crying. Let me say this....I never cry. Not even when I get hurt. Nothing has ever made me feel this awful before. Even now as I'm typing this my hands are shaking so ignore all the typos please.

Okay, so maybe my nephew wasn't a human (he is my 'sisters' yorkie), but it is like he really is. He was my favorite nephew and every time I would see him or talk to him on the phone I would let him know he was my favorite. Heck, I even have a locket with his photo that I carry around with me.

But he just celebrated his sixth birthday last Sunday, and I wasn't able to make it to the party cause they live several states away. You would know the one party I didn't make it too...

For those of you who want to know how everything happened. All I know is he went outside and was hit by a car. The car didn't even stop. I can't go into details right now, cause well I'm trying to not cry again. I really think I have cried so much I have no more tears.

Anyways, sorry for the whole heart-felt explanation of feelings there. But I wanted to let everyone know I may not be able to post for a while. My muse has left me, and I don't know when it will return. Honestly he was the basis on several of my charries, and I don't know if I will be able to rp them again, not without breaking down. I'll try to post every now and then but I can't promise much. So I'm hoping my muse or well anything but tears will come back to me soon, cause I hate being so sad. You guys may see me every now and then, but I doubt I'll be on much for at least a week. I may try to post, but like I said I'm not promising anything. And I just realized that two of my cats based on him are two I post with most. Crap...

I guess I'm done with my babbling, but just wanted to let you guys know I'm not gonna be on very little, if not any these next couple of weeks. I really want to roleplay but every time I start to reply I break out into tears again. I'm gonna stop this message now before I bore everyone..but I just need to post this one last thing.

In Loving Memory of Fletcher (Fletchy):

[☆ Y e l l o w ☆]

I'm so sorry, Ambie. *offers hug* I don't know what it feels like to lose a pet, but it must be horrible. I hope you'll feel better. =(

[Ki]

I'm so sorry Ambie. I've only lost one pet, and I wasn't close enough to her to feel very sad when she died. Plus I was young, and you know how resilient little kids are.

*offers hug a hug as well. And a cookie*

[. s p o r e l e t t ♪]

Oh, Amber, it's so awful to lose a pet. ;_; I remember when my Speedy, my rat, died. It was so sudden... I woke up and thought she was acting funny, and then when I came back from school we had to rush her to the vet to be put down. I can honestly say that for a few days I just couldn't stop crying, just at random times it would hit me and I'd tear up. But it does get easier, and I promise you that after a while, the pain will ease and you will be able to fondly remember all the good times that you had with your nephew.

Be strong, Amber! We're here for you.

[Kitty]

I'm so sorry, Amber. I've lost two pets (and countless fish and hermit crabs, too, I might add). But I was young for both of them, and for the kitty we'd had for less than six months I wasn't too bonded to. Now, the dog was my dad's best friend and a whole other story (especially since we had to have him put down on my little sister's birthday).

But still, I'm rambling. I'm sorry. *huggles* And Spore's right! We're here for you!

[spike]

We're all here for you, Ambie. When you come back, you have a pack of friends here to greet you. Don't forget that!

We've all been through sad situations, myself included several times when it comes to pets. But we have to remember that everything can get better. It can't get worse. Just keeping going forward, Ambie. We'll wait here for you with open arms.

[Sydney]

I'm so sorry Amber. I know how it can feel to loose a beloved family member, even if it's not a "human" one. It's hard, terribly so.

Just don't forget that we're all here for you. c: